There are times in life
when you say or hear something you don’t understand. There are others when you
feel something unexplainable. Then, the favorites, times when no matter what happens,
you feel it was your fault. But you can’t take anything back. Life is one huge,
complex roller coaster and you either choose right then or someone chooses for
you. Either way, once you’ve flown past the moment of choice, there is no
turning back.
That Halloween night, I wish I hadn’t said anything; then Nick never would have thought something was wrong. I wish I never had stumbled across Drei and Valetta’s conversation, since I hadn’t stopped thinking about what she had meant. Going further back, I wish I had never been born an air elemental, whether the world needed me or not. It made me sensitive and insensitive to others. I didn’t know what I was doing, let alone what needed to be done. There was no manual for how to make things right. Just as there is no manual to life.
I keep thinking, what if I had never kissed Nick? Or trusted Drei? Would I be happier, or would I just be worse off?
One thing was for sure: I’d never know.
All I would ever know was how it turned out. And Jake was right. Everyone is held to his or her promises; even if you never say, “I promise…”
