Drei must
have sensed my unease after leaving the meeting with Caroline because he made a
point of spending more time with me. During the days he was teaching me the
tango, his aggravation at my inability to close my feet on the fifth step kept
at bay until I finally managed to remember. After successfully completing the
step for nearly half an hour, Drei added music to the formula, swiftly taking
off into a more complex tango, my feet following obediently, only occasionally
stumbling. At those times, he smiled, telling me I was doing wonderfully, and
slowed down until I was comfortable again.
After
dancing for what felt like an hour, he smiled approvingly, spinning me out and
back in, kissing me as I stopped in his embrace. Neither of us pulled away, too
content in being close. If things continued as such, I thought I might be able
to overlook Caroline’s negativity altogether. If nothing else, it was bringing
us closer, even if there was still a nagging voice in the back of my head
telling me I had to be cautious.
Ballroom
dancing was a way we could be close without necessarily drawing attention to
our relationship. The tradeoff was, of course, when we went out at night, I
taught Drei how to dance to regular music, and sometimes he added his own twist
of classical dance. Though he did try his best, his attempts were humorous as
he tried to add familiarity to the new. He often teased this “new dancing” was
a cruel joke to make a fool of him.
The day
before we were supposed to meet Caroline for her project, Drei and I went
walking. He judged it was safe for him since the sun was hidden behind the
heavy white-gray clouds. I still wasn’t sure about his tolerance to light. He
had once told me sunlight didn’t matter; now it seemed to matter and, though I
was curious, he would probably shrug it off as being unimportant.
When we
were halfway through the park, it began to snow. I ran out to the center of the
open field where snow from earlier in the week still lay peacefully. There, I
spun in circles, holding my arms out.
Snow was
the one form of precipitation that didn’t make me feel like I was suffocating. Rain
made the air heavier and, since air was as much a part of me as my skin and
hair and thoughts, it always depressed me. But snow was different. It was solid
enough to affect me much like falling leaves—which wasn’t at all.
Drei stood
on the cleared path, watching. I stopped, the corners of my lips curling
upwards.
“Come on,”
I shouted across the distance, waving my arm in a huge arc. “Dance with me.”
“No thank
you,” he replied, smiling, his hands buried in his coat pockets.
“Fine,” I
said, bending down to scoop up a handful of snow.
“Do not—”
Drei’s sentence fell flat as the snowball smashed against his shoulder. At
first, he just stared at the clumps of white embedded in the crevices of his
coat, bright against the dark material. In one swift motion, he scooped up a
handful of snow and tossed it in my direction.
A yelp
escaped my lips as I dodged it, laughing giddily.
“It is
unfair,” Drei said, the beginnings of a smile on his lips. He was already
throwing another snowball in my direction.
“Fair?” I
questioned, changing the course of the snowball. “Bombarding me is what’s unfair.”
A couple
more snowballs hit Drei as I blocked whatever he threw my way. Even when he
attempted dodging my missiles, I just manipulated the air to make sure they hit
their target—his punishment for being so resistant to dancing with me.
“What is
unfair,” he said—snow dusted over his slightly shaggy light brown hair—“is the
fact you have an advantage.”
“I have no
clue what you mean,” I teased, running to a new location that hadn’t been
scavenged clean.
His
amethyst eyes sparkled as he loudly replied, “And that is why you have yet to
be hit at all—”
“I’m just
that good.” When I noticed him running towards me, a fistful of snow in his
possession, I screeched joyfully, running away from him. Drei caught me fairly
quickly, holding me in his free arm and rocking us back and forth.
“I will not
use this snow against you,” he said, his features serious, but a mischievous
gleam in his eyes.
“That’s why
you’re still holding it.” I glanced at the clump of snow he still clutched.
“I am still
holding it because it told me you deserved this.” I flinched in his grasp as he
crushed the snowball on top of my head. He laughed as I shook large chunks out
of my hair, my cheeks bright red and cold, both of us wearing veils of snow in
our hair. “You cannot avoid me forever.”
“I never said
I wanted to.” Our eyes locked on each other.
Everything
around us was silent, almost as though it was afraid to interrupt us. All of
the laughter and teasing that had echoed in the clearing had faded away. What
was left was the soft snowfall and us, together, seemingly suspended in time.
And then he
kissed me.
There, in
the open, for anyone to see—not that there were many people out for leisurely
strolls—in one of the most peaceful settings of which I had ever been a part.
It was a
moment free of worry, false pretenses, fear…everything but love.
On the way
home, Drei asked, “Are you ready for tomorrow?”
I gazed up
at him, unsure how to answer. No matter what, every time I thought about
Caroline, or Ian, or the whole faction, I couldn’t shake the feeling something
was going to happen. Something was going to ruin what I had with Drei, whether
directly or not.
“I don’t
know,” I said after a while.
“I will be
there with you, every step of the way.” He took my hand in his, stopping to
kiss my fingers. His eyes were serious and a darker amethyst than usual. He was
right; he would be there. Drei would be at my side so long as I needed him;
tomorrow I needed him, more than I had in a long time.
“So long as
you’re with me, I’ll be fine.”
Another
thought occurred to me as we reached the apartment, though: what if what was
going to happen would transpire not because of someone else, but because of
Drei?
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