Chapter Eleven: Tear Stained
I couldn’t tell if I was in pain. It might have been so
intense I couldn’t recognize that’s what it was; but it might have been
nonexistent, and my brain was just trying to find it.
On the ambulance ride, the EMT kept talking, kept saying the
same things Caroline had. She was there, too—still hysterical and panicking—demanding
he do something while he argued he was trying and needed her to calm down. As
they fussed around me, trying to stop the bleeding in my back, everything started
blurring on the edge of my vision. It wasn’t long before I couldn’t make out
any of his features, but Caroline was easy to differentiate; her hair was
flaming, almost as brilliantly as she was. Her element seemed to be wrapped
around her in bright crimson ribbons. Even after I blinked, trying to clear my
vision, the ribbons were still there.
The blurriness didn’t go away as another group of nurses and
doctors swarmed me. They were all talking, reading stats and asking questions. None
of them seemed to have faces, though a few had blue or green ribbons wrapped
around them. The only thing that made sense was trying to stabilize my
condition—at least until they figured out the extent of the damage—and whether
it would be better or worse to remove the bullets.
One thing that scared me was the stale air they kept forcing
into my lungs. It wasn’t the air I was afraid of; it was how it didn’t feel
right in my system. That, and the fact I didn’t seem connected to the air
around me anymore. Before I could have improved my hearing, picked up on
other’s emotions and thoughts. Now, I couldn’t do any of that. And, worse yet,
it felt like I was going deaf. All of the chatter from the nurses was dying
away into oblivion. Even Caroline’s screaming voice was being pulled away until
it was barely a whisper.
“Let me through,” someone was saying, his voice coming across
clearly despite having lost all of the others. It rang in my ears, startling, comforting,
and familiar. “Abriel,” he whispered, his voice drowning out all of the other
noise.
“Drei,” I breathed shakily. A blinding pain shot through me
as if talking was against the rules. It died away and I could feel his hands
wrapped around mine, his lips brushing against my knuckles.
I couldn’t begin to explain how strange it was to see him,
for him to be there. He hadn’t spoken to me in almost eight months. In two
thirds of a year. Yet here he was, as if nothing had ever separated us. Though
I couldn’t feel anything inside me, I was willing to bet my heart was racing.
A white shape passed by the door and Drei followed it,
demanding to talk to whomever it was.
“What are you planning to do that will heal her?” he demanded,
leaving no question they would do otherwise. I couldn’t make out what the white
shape was saying, but Drei responded, “I am the closest to family she has. What
are the options?”
It was a long time before Drei answered whatever babble the
shape had spilled. I had closed my eyes, trying not to think about dying. Even
if everyone else would like to think they could delay it, I could feel it
setting in. It was why the air wasn’t responding to me anymore. At this point,
it was inevitable but I seemed to be the only one aware of it. What was worse
wasn’t that I was dying; it was I still hadn’t done the one experiment I had
wanted to try.
But he was here. If my heart stopped beating in the next
moment, I would be okay with it. As much as I disliked her way of bringing him
back to me, she did. And for that, I was eternally grateful.
“So if I say yes to the procedure, she may live?” Drei asked,
still conversing with the white shape. There was more soft murmuring and then
he replied, “Do it. Whatever it takes, do it.”
When he returned to my side, I wanted to tell him no. It
wasn’t worth it. He was only putting off what was bound to happen.
“They will take you soon,” he whispered, brushing my hair
back. “I shall be waiting here when you wake.” I wanted to promise I’d wake up
again, but I couldn’t guarantee it; I couldn’t even force the words out. “You
will wake again.”
He followed them as they prepared to take me into the operating
room. Part of me knew he couldn’t be there with me, but it didn’t stop me from
wishing he would be. Just in case I wasn’t able to see him again.
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